Category: Ryan

I am Whole Again

It is the end of a year. On January 7, 2018 I had my last drink of alcohol. I don’t remember it or much of the preceding two days. In truth and unknowingly, I was poisoning myself. I would come to the next day in extreme abdominal pain and internal hemorrhaging. Fortunately, still alive. Very

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What’s in a Name

Alcohol. Booze. Liquor. Words we use to describe our demon and name the enemy. Convenient nouns. While alcohol does alter certain chemical states in our bodies that create and enhance its addictive nature, it is merely the courier or manufacturer of our desires. I don’t think we truly seek the pleasure of the taste or

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The Edge

I have stood at the precipice and looked down, tottering on the edge,vertigo gripping my mind. Strangely,the fall is inviting.A momentary abandonment to flight. The exhilaration of soaringbut for a brief timebefore an abrupt ending. It is not the fall that kills youbut the landing. It is a frivolous and foolish thought.I have no wings

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