So here I am
Who was I?
I was 50…..Working in a high level professional job 2 children 1 husband 2 Labradors
I had been drinking alcohol on and off since I was 16. I now drank 1-2 bottles of wine a day after work as my ‘reward’ and more at weekends.
My leisure time and social life were wrapped around alcohol – every aspect of it intrinsically linked.
I exercised and ate a healthy diet etc but never really felt well.
I often drank to blackout, waking with bruises and injuries of unknown origin.
I was lost and alone – hungover was my normal.
Emotionally, physically and mentally I was drained.
I hated my life and myself. My job was hard and emotionally I was volatile.
I knew the amount I drank was too much but my ultimate aim was to control my drinking to an acceptable level.
Giving up alcohol was not an option I ever considered seriously.
I would abstain from alcohol for a month at a time always after an ‘incident’ Then I would begin to drink again after a month of abstinence – – and ALWAYS – – slip slowly back to drinking exactly the same as before.
On 27th December 2013 at 3.15am I found the online community Hello Sunday Morning and became ZOO.
ZOO does not drink alcohol.
I have not drunk a drop of alcohol since.
I had to learn what quantity of alcohol I drank, when I drank, and most important of all WHY I felt I NEEDED to drink – what it was that alcohol gave me.
I had to not drink alcohol for a year to begin the slow process of learning all of that.
I had to learn to question societies insistence that we have to drink alcohol to be accepted.
I had to learn other ways to cope with life’s ups and downs without using alcohol.
I had to learn for the first time ‘who I was’ and learn to love her warts and all.
I had to change aspects of my life that could be changed and needed to be changed and accept the ones that couldn’t be changed.
On 26th December 2018 I was 5 years Alcohol Free.
So here I am
Who am I now?
I am 54.
Working in a high level professional job 2 children 1 husband 2 Labradors.
Emotionally, physically and mentally I am strong.
I love my life, my job and I am proud of who I am.
I am happy, healthy, peaceful and free from the chains that alcohol had imprisoned me in.
I DO NOT DRINK ALCOHOL…..AND NOW IT’S ENTIRELY BY CHOICE.
“For a long time, when it’s working, the drink feels like a path to a kind of self-enlightenment, something that turns us into the person we wish to be, or the person we think we are. In some ways the dynamic is simple: alcohol makes everything better, until it makes everything worse.” ― Caroline Knapp, Drinking: A Love Story
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