Tag: alcohol-use-disorder

The Alcohol Dopamine Hit – a Pleasure and Pain Dichotomy

Red Boxing Gloves -Hanging up the Dopamine hit from Alcohol

I used to believe my drinking was abnormal. My emotions and mood swings, my anxiety about the drinking itself, seemed to keep me going round on the hamster wheel of drink, drunk, regret. Even though I promised myself daily that I would stop. Just STOP! Now I believe that what I was going through with

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Off the Hamster Wheel – Looking Back to 9 months Alcohol-Free !

Well, I’ve hit the 9-month sober milestone! Me! She who ‘needed’ alcohol as her reward every night. She who felt shite every day. She who’s life was so wrapped around the social ‘benefits’ of alcohol she couldn’t see what it was doing to her and her life and family. The restrictions it was placing on

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Sobriety is the Best Kept Secret

Woman chainsaw dog garden

This is a picture of me in my sober badass shoes. My daughter took the picture a few years ago to help me tell a story. I don’t usually sit around in my back yard wearing cutoff shorts and high heels. Usually, I’m barefoot! But this day was special! I’ll tell you more about that

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18 Months Sober: Fulfilling the Promise of Hope

My sponsor sent me a picture yesterday of someone opening a wine bottle in the hatchback of their SUV at 11 o’clock in the morning.  She commented she was glad that was not her anymore.  I agreed but said I would’ve at least waited until I got inside the car.  Which was kind of dark

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The Magic is Within Us All

Evicting the Wine Witch : Get away from victim mentalityIt curbs authenticity Gives the Wine Witch permission and authority To try to ruin your life, oh boy Do you want to hand over your capacity for joy?To someone who doesn’t careDelights when you despair inmisery  It’s not easy to seeWhat a slippery slope Wine can beIt crept up

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