A post in our online community about the keys to sobriety got me thinking about courage. I wrote something about courage as a key to being sober in my comment and then stumbled across this in Haruki Murakami’s book, The Wind-up Bird Chronicle : “Curiosity can bring guts out of hiding at times, maybe even
When I drank I didn’t know why. I didn’t like who I became when I drank. I didn’t like how I felt after I drank. I didn’t like how I drank once I started. I could go for a month sober maybe and then when I drank I drank daily. So I could go for
The balance of light and dark in me has shifted, but they remain in un-equal measures due to my efforts to eradicate the dark.
The true need is, therefore, to draw those aspects of myself together and search to establish equilibrium.
I look away when things are scary. When I’m filled with fear, I try to control other things because I feel like I can’t handle it. I get light-headed, nauseous, sweaty, panicked. There is a ringing in my ears. Sometimes when it’s not as bad, I just procrastinate instead. I do laundry, shop online, watch