I can remember being in awe of people who had gone for a long time alcohol-free. I never thought I’d do it. In fact, to be truthful I didn’t think I COULD do it. I’d tried to reduce, moderate, change the drink in my glass, go a month without and start again. When I drank
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My addictive tendencies are not limited to alcohol. And actually, this is not really even about alcohol or even addiction. I see these as symptoms of deeper issues. Alcohol was just one of the many rocket ships that sent me soaring high and as far away as possible from planet me. It could be and has been other things, like sweets, tobacco, social media, and people.
I knew that I needed to stop drinking but everything that I had ever learned about sobriety left me cold. As a high energy, independent thinker I was not interested in following a program that required I slow down and get humble. Bumper stickers that said “one day at a time” or “easy does it” made me squirm. As I sunk deeper into the muck of knowing that I could no longer keep up with the cool kids and control my drinking I stumbled over my solution on the internet.
Many people scoff at the idea that they are addicted to alcohol. We associate alcohol addiction with physical dependance but you do not have to be a late stage, physically dependant alcoholic to be addicted to drinking. Even if you only drink on weekends your brain has learned to associate certain times and activities with a feeling of neccessity to drink. Breaking out of habitually drinking after work on Friday poses many of the same diffiulties of breaking out of habitually drinking every night. It takes focus and preperation to get sober and stay sober whether your addiction is to a daily dose or simply a routine of weekend drinking.
My leisure time and social life were wrapped around alcohol – every aspect of it intrinsically linked.
I exercised and ate a healthy diet etc but never really felt well.
I often drank to blackout, waking with bruises and injuries of unknown origin. I was lost and alone – hungover was my normal. Emotionally, physically and mentally I was drained.