The thing about stepping off the booze elevator is that there seem to be a finite number of chances for some of us. I take the dangerousness of me drinking again very seriously. Even though I’m almost four years sober …. if I step back on that elevator I may not get off again. There is absolutely no guarentee that anyone gets off so I will not drink again no matter how harmless the people who love me think one glass of wine here and there should be for me .