Why did I stop drinking? I bought the wine o’clock as me-time ideal. I was the woman who could do everything, did do everything, and deserved a drink or 2 at the end of the day. I didn’t use alcohol to self-medicate because I had repressed issues. I drank because it was my reward and
I’m my early days of sobriety I was struggling. Single parenting sober, trying desperately to meet all the demands of two small children while going through some real Huge emotions, working at a country club and being surrounded by alcohol on a daily basis…I just needed to not be needed. I was feeling overwhelmingly vulnerable
Is that what sobriety is about? Showing up for my own life? Yesterday, I told my mom and brother I thought I might be an alcoholic. I was cooking and slipped it so casually into the conversation I might have said, you know, I think this soup could use more salt. You know, I think
I knew because I was waking too many mornings wishing I hadn’t drunk alcohol the night before and yet choosing to drink it yet again when it ‘called to me’ later in the day….. On my other attempts when I gave up a month at a time I always always ‘fought it.’ -What I mean
