When I stopped drinking, I thought that life was going to become blah. I thought that I was going to become a rather dull, uninspired individual and I honestly had no idea how I was going to get from 5 pm to 10 pm without pouring a couple of bottles of wine all over my
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I drink because I’m happy. I drink because I’m sad, lonely, angry or to reward myself for being sober for a week.
I drink because I want to. I drink when I don’t want to. I drink for no reason and any reason. I drink today because I drank yesterday and want to feel better. But I won’t. I drink alone sneaking bottles into my house so my neighbours won’t see and slip the empties out in the trash for fear the recycling centre staff think I’m a drunk.There’s the irony in it. I drink to feel better but don’t. I drink to escape but remain a prisoner. I drink in celebration and create a tragedy. I revel at night and wallow in the morning.
I drank to numb and silence myself. My addiction isolated me. To find my voice in sobriety I needed a safe place to slowly test my wings. To stretch and grow and find my strength before I learned to fly.
Are you concerned or even just unhappy about how much or how often you are drinking or how it makes you feel? It doesn’t matter how much or how often you are drinking. That’s ENOUGH.