Tag: Stop drinking without AA

I am Whole Again

It is the end of a year. On January 7, 2018 I had my last drink of alcohol. I don’t remember it or much of the preceding two days. In truth and unknowingly, I was poisoning myself. I would come to the next day in extreme abdominal pain and internal hemorrhaging. Fortunately, still alive. Very

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I am Tired

I had had a taste of some nasty liquor at a spend the night party when I was 12 and my parents had allowed us to sip wine with dinner in our teens but I didn’t drink, I was a good girl and was terrified of getting into trouble and messing up my charmed life.

Sobriety is Never Owned, it's Rented

I am 77 Years old and have been consuming alcohol for some 60 odd years, over this period in many occupations and circumstances I have been – not realising it – slowly but surely – sliding down the throat of a Pitcher plant. Just like a fly, the further down the throat you slide, the

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Wouldn't it be Great….

The thing about stepping off the booze elevator is that there seem to be a finite number of chances for some of us. I take the dangerousness of me drinking again very seriously. Even though I’m almost four years sober …. if I step back on that elevator I may not get off again. There is absolutely no guarentee that anyone gets off so I will not drink again no matter how harmless the people who love me think one glass of wine here and there should be for me .