When I was drinking routinely I worried about the health consequences, but articles like this, The Top 10 Health Risks of Alcohol for Women, According to an MD, did little to help me stop. Usually, those articles frightened me, which made me want to pour a glass of wine to relax. No matter how clear my intention was to have just one glass, that one would often lead to an empty bottle and more often than not, one bottle would lead to another …
Books or articles about the health benefits of moderate drinking had a different effect on me. Articles like this, A Glass Of Red Wine Is The Equivalent To An Hour At The Gym, Says New Study encouraged me to try “moderation” one more time. After reading the “benefits of moderate drinking” articles I would decide that as I was high functioning in every way I certainly should be able to control my drinking. I would pour a glass in hope rather than fear but the end result would be the same.
Whether driven by fear or hope, once I had that glass of wine in my hand I would feel safe. I would feel invincible. Even after four and a bit years happily sober I remember that feeling! It was quite literally me and my wine against the world and the result was such a nasty dichotomy. The difference between the safe, protected, invincible feeling I had pouring the second big glass of wine and the insecure, shock at waking up at 3 or 4 in the morning with a dry mouth and hot head not remembering if I’d finished the second bottle and screaming silently WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY….
The thing that I didn’t understand is that aside from all of those health issues mentioned in that terrific first article above, what alcohol does to you’re brain makes it almost impossible to get a rational hold on the situation and just stop already. Alcohol poisons your mind against you. It has a parasitic effect on your mind.
If you are wondering why you are having trouble stopping or staying stopped it’s because of this parasitic effect on your brain that is described so well here.
” In chronic alcohol use, the brain shrinks faster in women compared with men. The parts of the brain that shrink the most are the cingulate gyrus (part of the limbic system—involved in emotion formation, processing, and motivation) and insula (involved in homeostasis or balance, and also emotion, including compassion, empathy, perception, self-awareness, some cognition and motor control, and interpersonal experience).
If you’re a habitual drinker then reading that quote is most likely more depressing than inspiring and will most likely make you want a drink, but please stop and think, reach out, start talking about what’s going on, even if you feel like a broken record.
Know that we understand. Know that we have been there. Most of us who contribute to the Boozemusings Community blog and are members of BOOM Retink the Drink, have been in that place where our emotions are out of whack and we feel no motivation to change, where we feel like the world is out to get us and the only safe place is the bottle we just cursed for tricking us once again.
Alcohol is not like a parasite. It doesn’t just suck out your soul. It sucks out your soul and replaces it with poison. Alcohol is a mosquito. A big hairy disease-carrying mosquito.
Smack it, spray it, squash it, Pour it out.
And please call out for help.
We’ve been there
And we might be able to help you pull yourself out of the mosquito-infested swamp.
On the plus side when you stop drinking and stay stopped these brain issues begin to heal. Some heal quickly and some over a couple of years. I experienced it and I have been amazed really. I never expected my brain to become more resilient in sobriety than it was before I started binge drinking but it is. According to Marc Lewis in his book The Biology of Desire our brains not only recover, but they also develop new grey matter in the frontal lobe as we work through recovery. We become better, more creative problem solvers than we were before we became addicted.
Oh and here is the recent research on why no amount of alcohol is good for you
The study referenced in that article will be debated and contradicted by other studies that are funded by people hoping to make a profit off your sinking into the abyss. I’m not interested much in debates anymore. I’ve found my truth. And my truth is that life without alcohol is truly living. Finally Free!
You don’t HAVE to drink.
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