Family Legacy


When did the party cease to be?
Fun times,
laughs,
friends with me 

There came a time 
I crossed a line 
That line
that was to change my life
 
A life that was sad
when I care to admit 
A child so scared who didnโ€™t fit 
Family secrets never told 
Parents slowly growing old 

A mother torn
and broken inside 
The loss of a child
that she chose to hide 
From a generation
who wouldnโ€™t see
How real a bond
to a child can be
 
She chose to drown
those sorrows deep 
It left me sad,
anxious,
quick to weep 

She never saw the pain or hurt 
I moved away,
my life to live
But genes,
I fear do stay with me 
I drowned my sorrows
as she had done
It started well and often fun
 
She died sadly in her 70th year 
It took a lot to shed a tear 
There was a certain
amount of relief 
That helped me battle
this mounting grief

The devils water flowed my way 
Heโ€™d lured me in,
I was here to play 
But the game soon became
a losing one 
My tangled web
was tightly spun 

Iโ€™d crossed the line 
I knew it well,
stumbling under
the poison spell
 
No stopping at 1, 2 or 3
My secret stash topped up in time 
Deceiving those who drank with me

Iโ€™m not the terrified
little girl no more 
Iโ€™m living now,
Iโ€™m free for sure 
Iโ€™m living my life
as I know I should 

Chains are broken
and Iโ€™m over that line 
Of shame and grief
of family time 

Theyโ€™d be proud
of the girl they left behind 
She proved herself ,
she stood her ground 
It’s freedom now
that drowns her mind


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