For as long as I can remember I’ve made my life busy. Busy to avoid those feelings, the fears, the insecurities, the disappointments, and the anger. All those normal feelings that are a result of just living. Busy because I’m surrounded by a personal and general environment that seeks and rewards accomplishment. An environment that finds expressions of emotions unsettling. And so I drank. Until I found what I didn’t even know I was looking for. Sobriety.
How did I get here? Must be after googling “alcoholism” a number of times the algorithm determined I should be introduced to Boom. I stumbled in. And just in time to contemplate a Sober September. Why not?
Oh, and how fun. In Boom, you can post your thoughts and feelings to mark the days. And even more remarkably people respond and offer support, experience, and advice. Who knew?
Boom you have directed me with, and to, an enormous amount of valuable information. And each piece leads to another.
In Boom posts by Maggy D were such an inspiration to me in the beginning. I loved her humor, her openness to explore, and her ability to share her experiences. She was my initial sober hook.
Then I discovered Mrs P and her brutal honesty. Wow! Just what I needed.
This Boom community is really like an onion. So many layers to discover. People, ideas, feelings, self. Hmmm, it does require time, patience, and intention.
I have to admit I became involved here for purely selfish reasons but then the spirit overtakes you. The spirit of connection.
Then it was on to October. A sober October !
Well, somewhere around October 12 I faltered with a couple of glasses of wine. My perfect record was ruined. How disappointing…
But it appears this place Boom is really a no-judgment zone. My admission was met with encouragement and suggestions on how to carry on alcohol-free today.
Boom you understood. You’d been there before. Wow!
I just couldn’t resolve whether my slip required a restart to Day 1 or merely a continuation on. So I stopped counting days of sobriety. Failures are a necessary part of success.
Ensō. The Zen circle.
I love everything it symbolizes. It feels like a signature –
Beginning and ending.
Emptiness or fullness.
Contained within or excluded by boundary.
Separate but a part of something greater.
Perfect in its imperfection.
Representing our innermost self.
One size does not fit all!
Abandoning the idea the path ends at a specific point, place or time…
But reminding you to start again right where you are…
enjoying, embracing the unique journey of our lives.
Sobriety? The journey feels tenuous. But at this point in my life I’m ready to embrace the challenge.
Every day I remind myself:
Sobriety is a process. There’s no skipping ahead because I think it’s taking too long. Keep moving.
I found my sobriety and myself here in Boom. In this community there’s the time, the space, and the incentive to slow down, to contemplate, to explore, to just be.
Happiness: It’s the sum of hundreds of small things. To notice takes practice.
Come join us for our Sober October! Have a happy discovery day.
WHO ARE WE?
If you’re “sober curious” …If you are drinking too much too often and want to stop or take a break… Talk to Us.
We are an independent, anonymous and private community who share resources, support and talk it through every day. It helps to have a community behind you in a world where alcohol is the only addictive drug that people will question you for NOT using