I have been a problem drinker since my early 20s. To be excited about not drinking would have been laughable to me a few years ago! The idea of not drinking forever was not something that I’d have considered an option. I tried rules; cutting down, only drinking on weekends, taking a month off. Now I’m 39, at 36 in 2018 I managed 6 months of sobriety while interacting daily with an online community called BOOM Rethink the Drink. Life couldn’t have been better.
Then I thought, it’s been 6 months surely my brain has healed, so I had a drink, and that slip turned into a slide. I relapsed on New Years’ eve. Gradually every morning became a miserable slog again…I’ll moderate I would tell myself. I’ll just drink weekends I would tell myself. But it always crept back into the week. My shame & self-loathing had returned. I was overweight for my height, sad & anxious. I had forgotten just how beautiful & amazing life could be.
After finally regaining my sober momentum, I was nearly 6 months sober again, when I started thinking about drinking. But awful experiences from the past had taught me I CAN NOT DRINK……’ this is my thing & it will always be my thing’ Sarah Hepola. This was when I decided to get a script of Naltrexone & try the Sinclair Method.
Fast forward to today, I’m sober. I met & married the man of my dreams, I’ve lost 20kg and have no desire to drink. Life is brilliant. Still 50/50, there’s good and bad but nothing like the agony of drinking. Today I am 434 days alcohol-free, with the help of Naltrexone and compliance with the Sinclair Method. I’m now excited to say that I’m a nondrinker. In Sinclair language I’ve reached ‘extinction.’ I’ve got my sober momentum back & life is amazing again.
This is a picture of my weekend Thewn and Now- Before and After I stopped drinking and finally stayed sober using Naltrexone and The Sinclair method:
‘Oh my gosh, what a week. Wine time!!’
This was all good (not really) until I finished bottle uno & moved onto the second.
Friday (now)– Yes, the markets are on- amazing food & great atmosphere! (Plus I remember the night).
‘Oh my gosh, my head, what did I do? Where’s my phone? Check messages/calls….possibly die from what I read, worse a long conversation I have no recollection of. Arg ….hmmm pretending I feel fine ‘let’s go to lunch somewhere!’
Code, I need to drink at least 3 to get rid of this god-awful shame/hangover.
Saturday (now)– wake up early, relax with coffee, work out, get dressed feeling fresh & amazing. Hubby & I go on a hike with lunch to visit waterfalls (we’re lucky to live in a part of Aus where they’re everywhere).
repeat Saturday, with the impending doom of Monday! Tell myself I’ll keep it tame, I have work tomorrow (I was never tame). If I’m still conscious by the evening, the sound of the ticking music of the show ‘60 minutes’ is taunting my poor choices…yes Monday is looming!
Sunday (now)– up early, lazy coffees, exercise feeling amazing! Head out to the waterfront for ice cream with hubby.
wake up with a jolt at 3am, drink gallons of water,
‘this has to stop!’…..
wake up again with barely enough time to get ready, get something greasy & a Powerade on the way to work. The anxiety condition I already have is through the f#cking roof!
‘This. Has. To. Stop.’
Monday (now)– up early, relaxing with coffee & BOOM about to exercise & get ready for work. No anxiety, no stress!
Slog out the week and hey, it’s Friday again!! Yesssss
When I first decided to give naltrexone and the Sinclair Method a go, I got a prescription, waited an hour & had some wine….I had 2.5 glasses & tipped the rest down the sink. After months of slipping and sliding, I had my handbrake back! I continued to drink, making sure I had the Naltrexone 1 hour before. Initially, it was exciting, yes you can get a bit buzzed but you don’t get the surge of dopamine. Slowly you begin to dislike the taste & your brain begins to rewire itself. After almost a year of working with Naltrexone, I have reached what they refer to in ‘Sinclair language’ as extinction.
For me this became achievable with strict adherence to the Sinclair Method, taking Naltrexone 1 hour before drinking. It gave me back my off switch. I could have 2 or 3 drinks & stop! I never cheated the program, I took Naltrexone 1 hour before EVERY TIME I drank. I was relieved, I didn’t have to give up my wine! Slowly the Naltrexone began to create new pathways in my brain….Wine no longer gave me the huge dopamine surge it once did. Alcohol started to lose its appeal. Now the thought of wine creates a physical reaction, I get a foul taste in my mouth. It’s like thinking about sucking a lemon!
This doesn’t work for everyone. If you have already stopped drinking and have some sober momentum going, hold that sacred! The Sinclair method ‘bible’ is called ‘The Cure for Alcoholism.’ There is also a private Facebook group called The Sinclair Method Warriors. If you’re thinking about trying naltrexone join ‘The Sinclair Warriors’ Facebook group and see the successes & failures.
We’re also here in the BOOM Rethink the Drink Community every day to share stories, support, and talk it through, whether you want to try Naltrexone, the Sinclair Method, or any of the other many methods available to take your life back from the alcohol trap.
Rethink the Drink ! The spirit is not in the bottle it’s in You!
This post was written by a member of the BOOM Rethink the Drink Community for the Boozemusings Blog based on her personal experience. Neither Boozemusings nor BOOM, advocates the use of Naltrexone or the Sinclair Method above other techniques for stopping drinking.
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