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Forever Alcohol-Free?

So I stopped drinking in March
This year actually
One evening
after a bottle of wine for tea
I felt unhappy
and no longer “me”
What was I turning into?
Who knew
If you’re going through this too
Do you still feel like you?
There were lots of questions
I started to ask
To find the answers
my mind was tasked
Like, wasn’t wine with tea okay,
If I don’t have it every day?
I told myself
in a stern kind of way
Well yes
but you are not eating that
Come on now
you know it’s a fact
And the alcohol use is creeping up
The desire for food has decreased
More meals untouched
As you seek a false peace
You are skipping nutrients
By just having a drink
Wanting stress relief
But alcohol is a health thief!
My inner voice sighed,
you’ll find out in time
It won’t be fine
If you don’t do something
about it now
Ok, alright, but how?
The next morning I felt shocking
A bloated, hungover look I was rocking
I went to work
Felt such a jerk
Was such an idiot to my hubby
How can he still love me?
Time for a change,
let’s try alcohol free
Do it for 30 days and just see
Ok at 60 days now
I’m struggling
But with all the fantastic support from BoozeMusings
I can resist from using
Alcohol to ease my stress
I know It would leave me in a mess
Feeling I needed more and more
Back to the way I was before
Kneeling alone in distress
Tears falling on my kitchen floor
Don’t want to feel like that
Anymore
At 90 days I want to celebrate
A reward
A wine bottle forms in my mind
But I play it forward
I don’t rewind
I don’t feel like giving away
My hard earned sobriety days
Press onto 100 I’ll see how I feel
Find out the whole deal
This sober state I’m in
Feels good not wrong
I might be starting to win
Hmmmm I think I’ll carry on
174 days now I think
As I sip my AF drink
The cravings come
but they always go
That I know
Going to do a full year of not drinking
And lots of thinking
Then take a step back and see
Just how much more I feel like me
If I still feel happy
Well alcohol might just disappear
Permanently
Day 174
If youโre โsober curiousโ โฆ
If you are drinking too much too often and want to take a breakโฆ
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This poem was composed by Floss
The author of
Debunking the Romance of Mommyโs Wine Time โ The Runaway Train and Nailing the Narcissist
