The Runaway Train

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So we start a little journey on a fun looking train, not sure where it’s destination is but it looks cool and exciting.
We get off at our designated stop to go home safe and sound.
We get on this same train again and again and it takes us on a pleasant journey and we disembark as usual when time to do so.

As we get older we continue to board the train but the pressure of work and family make us miss our stop as we fall asleep.
We worry a little but carry on to the next station. 
That wasn’t so bad we tell ourselves, just a bus ride home or a walk and we’re fine

The next time this happens is a few nights later.
A terrible day at work makes you fall asleep again and this time you miss two stops, the next time it’s three.
It’s a long walk home at 2am, lonely and your head is telling you how stupid you are and how much you deserve to have to walk home, scared and lonely. 

The next week or so you are very careful not to fall asleep but after a while it happens again. 
This time the train seems to be going faster and faster and you go to see the driver in a panic.
There is no one there.
It’s a runaway train and you realise you’re not the one in control. 

How the hell are you going to get off this thing?
You manage to grab the controls and slow the train down, it takes an age and all your might and you think you might pass out or die from the pain and energy it demands of you to stop the train. But if you can slow it down just enough to jump off at the next station. 

It slows, you gather up all your remaining strength and faith and jump.
It feels like you’re jumping into the unknown.

In reality you landed on the platform crumpled in a heap, you’ve broken bones and you’re sure people can see you. You’re embarrassed, you feel so unworthy and a mess
But, you’re still alive, you got off that runaway train, you realise you should feel proud!
You realised the danger and made a choice 
Wow….you were strong enough to jump to safety….this time!

You’re not sure how to get home now but you limp along, people try and help you and you let them, reluctantly.
Eventually you feel better and decide you need to make your train journey again 

You notice the runaway train is still running 
How could this be, perhaps they fixed it? 
You felt sure it was going to crash, perhaps you imagined it?
But then those feelings of fear and pain and anguish and desperation come flooding back and although scared you smile and realise 
You are never catching that train again!

You know that although the outside looks lovely and the epitome of class and an enjoyable ride,
It’s anything but.

As people get on that train you realise you feel sorry for them and consider telling them not to board.
You try talking to a few people but realise they aren’t listening and they look a bit annoyed.
They are listening to music on their headphones and aren’t willing to remove them.

Nothing you can do, it’s their journey. 
Perhaps they don’t fall asleep and always get off at the right stop.
That’s great for them but it’s not for you you say.

Sadly you wonder what you’re going to do
Then as the train leaves you spot another train 
It doesn’t look quite as enticing, it looks a little plain but you find out it will go past your stop.
So you decide to give it a go.
Cautiously you board and once inside
You’re pleasantly surprised.

The seats look lovely and plush and the decor is fresh and modern.
There are plenty of seats and a table in front of each for you to put your stuff.
You choose a window seat and sink down in luxury you didn’t expect.
As the train sets off you brace yourself for a long slow boring journey. 
But you’re pleasantly surprised at the normal speed.

Also, bonus, you notice the scenery is beautiful and colourful.
You’ve never noticed how colourful the scenery could be before. 
Wow the view is so different over here
It puts you in a better mood.

You don’t feel as tired which is new to you,
And even though you might be stressed you use the table in front of you and lay out your books and work out how to tackle your stress,
Rather than fall asleep.

You feel more in control and grateful,
You notice you are enjoying the journey, you feel safe.
You just boarded the sobriety train.

Train Trip

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