I didn’t understand what an alcohol-induced blackout was until I read Sarah Hepola’s book Blackout : Remembering the Things I Drank to Forget. Before I stopped drinking I had actually had many blackouts, I just didn’t realize that when I woke up with no memory of going to sleep, and no memory of the conversations I’d
I’ve been sober almost four and a half years. I don’t call myself alcoholic but for lack of a better word I used the term alcoholic in the title. I could say that I have “Alcohol Use Disorder” or AUD but those labels are both clinical and clumsy. I don’t identify as an addict either.
I can’t say enough about the inspiration coming from Tama Kieves. She’s not a leader in the recovery movement (her partner is in long-term recovery, however) but she IS a leader in the movement of being who we truly are and all we can be. And the journey she is describing here applies so beautifully and
I’m the one at the bar nervously looking around if the server isn’t there right away to offer me my first drink or a refill. I’m the one who will have a glass before I go out to eat and drink. I’m the one who’s glass is always empty before everyone else’s. I’m the one
–Just a few days away now from 3.5 years alcohol free. A great big empowering freedom. It’s maybe more than a little ironic that I used to regard freedom as the freedom to do what I wanted, and want I wanted to do was get ‘buzzed’ as often as I could. About 20 years ago,
